09/15/10
278.2 lbs
Well, I'm back. It's been a month almost to the day. I've maintained weight for the most part which is saying something I think.
So, yeah. I have no idea what really caused the shunning of the blog but, sometimes it happens. I even stopped checking my bloggy email. Wanna know why? Well, I kept getting comments. I kept getting "Where Are You?" notes. Basically, I was being told that in no uncertain terms was I going to be allowed to go gentle into that good night. Yes, that's dramatic, but in a way, it's true.
I sometimes get very overwhelmed with my weight. This whole trying to find a date online hasn't made anything easier either. I'd much rather meet someone face to face so there are no levels of um surprise left to be discovered. While I've given full disclosure to in my profile, there's still that first ripping off of the bandaid when someone meets you for the first time in person. I hadn't anticipated that.
Anyway. I haven't exercised one bit. I'm getting on a plane in two weeks (a week and a half actually) and I will still not be able to break my 275 lb self from sitting in those seats. I really want to be below that number but somehow continue to sabatage myself any time I get close to doing so. Shit!
Anyway (again). I wanted to tell you all that I really (really) appreciate your warm wishes and concerns and cheers and everything that welcomes me back into the fat fighting fold.
Thank you for not leaving me alone.
-jafg
