03/16/2010
279.6 lbs
That was yesterday's weight. Today...it's a little higher, so I think I'll stick with that.
Kids, SO much has happened in the few weeks I've been gone. Firstly, I saw LDL. Boy, did I see him. A lot. Like many, many, many times. Repeatedly. I saw him. It was good. It was really good. I think you get the point.
Secondly, I haven't hit my gym up with Li'l Bit since being back in town. This is a bad thing. I have managed to lose a few lbs and keep them off since the CHALLENGE last month. This is a good thing. MAC (said challenger and ADVERSARY) is now with child. Shit. I'm SO happy for her, but now the whole percentage of loss thing...totally no longer applicable. Doesn't mean I'm no longer motivated. It just means I have to find someone else to blame for my pain when I exercise. It's always good to have a scapegoat (MAC, I don't think you're a goat...just wanna make that clear).
Holy Followers! I've jumped 5 followers in the few weeks I've been gone. That blows my mind! I am so happy that people like this blog enough to follow it and I've had a steady climb upward, but I've never had such a big jump in numbers before. It's humbling. And, of course, it feeds my ego. Ironic, I know, but it does work both ways.
I have a crazy summer formulating. The next few months have a lot going on socially. Great motivation for keeping on track. Also, lots of reasons to panic a bit since a few involve bathing suits. I can do it, I just have to gear up for it. You know what I mean.
To top everything off, I met someone locally. It's such a new, budding possibility I don't want to talk about it in detail right now. It's confusing because of LDL. But, then again, there's the L-D part of the equation which really sucks. Ugh. I see him again in May. Months between visits is not condusive for growing into anything more than whatever it is we are now.
WTH??? When did my life become so damn complicated????
Oh. Yeah. When sex came back into it.
It is a calorie burner, tho.
-jafg
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Wednesday, March 16, 2011
Thursday, December 16, 2010
No Excuses
12/16/2010
2??.? lbs
I haven't weighed in the past few days. The last time, though, the figure had managed to creep back up to above the 280 mark...not by much but enough to make me very uncomfortable.
It's been THREE long, silent months since my last posting. I have no excuse for it, there's no backsliding, no deep, dark depression, just a lot of mis-managed time and real-life stuff.
I forget about how much I love this community while on my little breaks. And then, it comes flooding back when I open my inbox and see HUNDREDS of emails (ok, not all of them are legit) and realize just how much I count on this little corner of the world. And how much I affect others, even when I don't know it.
Faithful followers know I cling to my super secret identity and that anonymity is what JAFG is all about. There's this real sense of true honesty that comes from not being known. Well, there are a few of you out there that know me, really know me, and I got a quiet nudge from one of those friends today. If someone can take the time to let me know I'm missed, (which was also evident from all the comments on my last post) well, then, I can make the time to write. I can make the time to share.
When I write here, I become a more fulfilled (in addition to being a more accountable) me. I miss that. I miss you.
Also, when I stop posting, I lose the chance to get comments like these:
I really do heart you people.
-JAFG
2??.? lbs
I haven't weighed in the past few days. The last time, though, the figure had managed to creep back up to above the 280 mark...not by much but enough to make me very uncomfortable.
It's been THREE long, silent months since my last posting. I have no excuse for it, there's no backsliding, no deep, dark depression, just a lot of mis-managed time and real-life stuff.
I forget about how much I love this community while on my little breaks. And then, it comes flooding back when I open my inbox and see HUNDREDS of emails (ok, not all of them are legit) and realize just how much I count on this little corner of the world. And how much I affect others, even when I don't know it.
Faithful followers know I cling to my super secret identity and that anonymity is what JAFG is all about. There's this real sense of true honesty that comes from not being known. Well, there are a few of you out there that know me, really know me, and I got a quiet nudge from one of those friends today. If someone can take the time to let me know I'm missed, (which was also evident from all the comments on my last post) well, then, I can make the time to write. I can make the time to share.
When I write here, I become a more fulfilled (in addition to being a more accountable) me. I miss that. I miss you.
Also, when I stop posting, I lose the chance to get comments like these:
Results Not Typical Girl said...
If you don't come back soon regularly, I'm keeping all the dildos you loaned me.
-JAFG
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
Back By Popular Demand. Or Something Like That.
09/15/10
278.2 lbs
Well, I'm back. It's been a month almost to the day. I've maintained weight for the most part which is saying something I think.
So, yeah. I have no idea what really caused the shunning of the blog but, sometimes it happens. I even stopped checking my bloggy email. Wanna know why? Well, I kept getting comments. I kept getting "Where Are You?" notes. Basically, I was being told that in no uncertain terms was I going to be allowed to go gentle into that good night. Yes, that's dramatic, but in a way, it's true.
I sometimes get very overwhelmed with my weight. This whole trying to find a date online hasn't made anything easier either. I'd much rather meet someone face to face so there are no levels of um surprise left to be discovered. While I've given full disclosure to in my profile, there's still that first ripping off of the bandaid when someone meets you for the first time in person. I hadn't anticipated that.
Anyway. I haven't exercised one bit. I'm getting on a plane in two weeks (a week and a half actually) and I will still not be able to break my 275 lb self from sitting in those seats. I really want to be below that number but somehow continue to sabatage myself any time I get close to doing so. Shit!
Anyway (again). I wanted to tell you all that I really (really) appreciate your warm wishes and concerns and cheers and everything that welcomes me back into the fat fighting fold.
Thank you for not leaving me alone.
-jafg
278.2 lbs
Well, I'm back. It's been a month almost to the day. I've maintained weight for the most part which is saying something I think.
So, yeah. I have no idea what really caused the shunning of the blog but, sometimes it happens. I even stopped checking my bloggy email. Wanna know why? Well, I kept getting comments. I kept getting "Where Are You?" notes. Basically, I was being told that in no uncertain terms was I going to be allowed to go gentle into that good night. Yes, that's dramatic, but in a way, it's true.
I sometimes get very overwhelmed with my weight. This whole trying to find a date online hasn't made anything easier either. I'd much rather meet someone face to face so there are no levels of um surprise left to be discovered. While I've given full disclosure to in my profile, there's still that first ripping off of the bandaid when someone meets you for the first time in person. I hadn't anticipated that.
Anyway. I haven't exercised one bit. I'm getting on a plane in two weeks (a week and a half actually) and I will still not be able to break my 275 lb self from sitting in those seats. I really want to be below that number but somehow continue to sabatage myself any time I get close to doing so. Shit!
Anyway (again). I wanted to tell you all that I really (really) appreciate your warm wishes and concerns and cheers and everything that welcomes me back into the fat fighting fold.
Thank you for not leaving me alone.
-jafg
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