10/14/09
284.2 lbs
I'm eating a Wendy's taco salad for lunch today. I have to wear a napkin as a bib because it's messy. It's not what I started out to get, but I'm glad I went with this rather than a mushroom swiss burger and fries from some other place. Great, I just dropped some chili on my blouse. Good thing it's synthetic material; I just sponged it off without a problem.
I have to tell you, my blog-reading friends, I really wanted to post something yesterday but didn't have a damn thing to write about. It was depressing. Just sitting at my desk staring at the blinking cursor on the white screen was killing me. I'm surprised I'm here to tell you about it today!
I'm going to be very busy over the next few days. I've got a belated birthday party to attend tonight which I am super excited about. It's for me. The restaurant where we're going has freakin' fantastic french onion soup and that's what I'll be having for dinner. Tomorrow I'm going to a Wine and Cheese shindig after work. It's a business event, but I'm looking forward to it anyway. I love wine and I love cheese. There's gonna be a bunch of women there, so I won't be overdoing it (Thank you, Social Peer Pressure).
Friday night, I'm going to hear an awesome local band play at a bar that's pretty close to home and then Saturday I'm attending my first SEC football game (That's Southeastern Conference for those of you who don't know). I'm a little worried about that, turth be told. It should be fun, though. Tailgating will be! You'll all get to hear about it next week. The Good, The Bad, and The Ugly.
I also watched the tracking of the weight go from as high as 287+ to as low as 279+. I'm now at 284+. I guess that is somewhat progress. It depressed me a bit. Not really, but kinda. It made me wonder--after reading my blog and so many others--what really makes it happen. Yeah, yeah, I know, only I can make the decision to change myself...blah blah blah. But when does the click come in? Technically, I'm still sitting on the sidelines watching everybody else make progress and lose weight. And let me tell you, the people out there making strides are people that have had really come a long way! We're talking in the high double to triple figures here! That's my level of needed weightloss. It isn't like someone trying to work off an extra 5 lbs. or so. Which is hard for them, but we should all have these problems!
I'm still not motivated to really get out there and START. I've had a great time meeting friends and influencing people, but what have I really done for myself?
What made you get off the couch and kick your own ass? When was that "AHA" moment for you?
-jafg
4 comments:
I know my aha moment was when I realized I wasn't living life because I was letting my weight dictate my life. I knew that I wouldn't feel like myself until I lost the weight. I don't need to be 120 pounds to be happy, but I knew I wasn't happy at 260.
My "Aha!" moment was when I got on a public scale in front of my then-seven-year-old son (the Elder) and he announced my weight in front of the ENTIRE GROCERY STORE followed up with a very sweet, "Isn't that quite a lot, Mama?"
*headdesk*
I went on NutriSystem the next week. Did that for two months, then realized that I had to do something else because Lean Cuisine was seeming like a gourmet treat to me; so I settled into counting calories.
I dropped 55 lbs. in a little over a year, regained a bit of that, and have been waffling around that amount for a couple of years (give or take 10).
Now I'm working on the final 30. Before I got hit with H1N1 it was more the final 20, but comfort food = caloric minefield, so I'm fairly certain I've hosed that.
Oh well. Back on the treadmill sometime next week :P
I got a Wii for Christmas. I really wanted a Wii Fit, and was so nervous about it broadcasting my weight to anyone else that might use it.
Well after day 1 of using it my weight went up a pound or so. It of course didnt display the numbers on the main screen, but the graph showed it going up. I decided then and there that I was going to keep my weight below the line so that no one would see any gains. Well that turned into this...and I'm 79+ lbs down! HURRAY!
When I tried to put on jeans that had fit like a glove 6 months ago and now they don't even go up to my knees.... that was my a ha moment.
That combined with the fact that it's unfair to blame my relationship on being fat. "I'm happy. I eat when I'm happy. I eat what he eats." It's not fair to him and it's certainly not fair to me.
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